I have begun the start of some radical changes. I have found the most beautiful little house at the seaside, its a three bedroom bungalow, walking distnance to the sea, in a small town about twenty minutes drive from Skegness. I have visions of me living there with my cat, and the dog I will most definatly get. Working at an animal rescue centre in the day and writing my second maybe third forth and fifth novel at night. Its a dream. And i cant let it go. Its a new life. I am not stupid enough to think that this will make all problems disapear, but I do know that a new start is something that I could benefit from at the moment. It might not be a really exciting place to live or an exciting thing to do. But I am not sure that I need all that kind of excitement. I need a more simple life. I really need my mums support in this though because the house i want i cant get on my own, especially if i am not going to be earning that much money anymore. i think that my mum can see that i need this.