Tonight he has really pissed me off, he is constantly getting at me about something, he never gives me credit to be able to understand or think for myself and it makes me so mad. He was mad with me because i felt ill and was sick at work, then it was because i said that i would look after my sisters kids as she is in hospital. i almost hate him sometimes, the way that he lords it over me, like he is so wonderful. Telling me that he has worked hard his whole life, that i dont live in the real world, that i dont work hard, basicaly he makes me feel a bit worthless and pathetic and he reduces me to tears and never apologises and makes me wonder what the hell i am doing with him. i will admit that i have contemplated leaving him a few times, but now with the wedding being so close i am too scared to actually go through with it. And more than anything i dont think that it is what i want. I just wish that he would treat with some form of respect and not like i am beneath him, how things have changed so so much since we first got together, things were better then. i think the word to describe the way that he treats me would be Belittle. As in he does this to me. I am scared that this is my life now, that i am going to marry this man who will never treat me any different and that i am going to end up hating him. I dont know what to do or what to feel.